Have you every just thought about a certain something that you have, and then realized how happy you are to have it? Just thinking of this thing i have (it's not really a thing) i realize that i love it more than anything and i don't ever want to lose it...

so i guess like things are getting better...today was ok..school is chill. work is shit. me and kathleen were kinda shakey, but things are better now.i hate how i get soo sick (mentally and physically) when we fight. it realy fucking hurts. im bored as fuck and i dont want to start my paper for early childhood education or read anything at all. cigarettes are starting to get on my nerves, but i get headaches without them...fuck that...cant wait to smoke a blunt. so yeah...


peace

hey wuts up...havent been on this thing in sooo long. well i've been just pretty much chillin for the longest time. i work way too much and as much as i see my baby it never seems like enough for me, but then again with her nothing is ever enough (in a good way). i went shopping and out to eat alot with kathleen, i guess her being suspended wasnt as bad as we thought it was gonna be. hopefully more piercings on the way cause ryans b day is tommarow!!!!!!!!!! and we'll probably go get something done. well i guess im just gonna go poop and wait for mr. eurice to call me so we can jam. hoorat for guinea pigs(hope i spelled that right) Big Poppa and sugar!!!! cute as fuck. i miss kathleen already :( and its only been like thirty minutes since i last saw her.<333. well im out

things that need to happen soon:
1. Kathleen needs to leave work and come see me....hahaha
2.talk to kathleens mom about texas
3. register for classes
4. save money for christmas

blah blah blah blah..cant think of anything else

kam <3333333

peace

things have been crazy..i got my nipples pierced, i got a 97.50 ticket for running a stop sign on my bike, my friend got hit by a car, i got a new place to live at....things are moving so fast. im excited for homecoming just because i get to be with kathleen<3333. i hope we go with ryan and jamie because that will be fun as shit. and then the 17 is our one year. i hope we have a lot of fun doing whatever. well i guess thats it.

The past week has been soo fucking crazy..i really am happy that im alive/not in jail. I miss maryland sooo fucking much and sometimes i feel like i can't deal with this shit. I have been constantly hastled with smoking pot/cigs and my parents dont seem to be letting up. My body probably hates me right now for what i have been putting in it...(acid/e/and too much pot) i need to hold off on partying for awhile. I almost got arrested for smoking pot behind fry's and my ass had a bowl in my pocket. maryland is soo close. 11 days left but i hate that im getting in at 11 45 at night. i miss kathleen horribly and sometimes the distance takes a toll on our relationship...but it's all worth it. sometimes fighting with her seems inevitable and sometimes i feel like i just fight with her for the hell of it, i dont know whats wrong with me. right now im just not happy. im scared shitless of college and staying on campus.......im just gonna suck it up. i just want to be happy.

WHAT WILL MAKE ME HAPPY:
1. KATHLEEN<333333!!!! (sleepovers, showers, cuddling...etc)
2. my broski
3. sean to stop being an asshole and be more of a friend
4. a cigarette (but im glad i dont have one actually)
5. sleepovers at jamie's with the crunk crew
6. fatt mowler and a high skate sesh
7. something to do
8. buds
9. to be back in maryland and just fuckin chill
10. not being soo depressed

Last night was soo awesome. Ryan and I chilled with jamie, kathleen, and kelly for a bit at ryans..then me ryan and jonny got high. then ryan and i biked to jamie's house where kathleen and kelly were....needless to say it was a fucking awesome night. the best blunt i have ever seen rolled ...kathleen<333...and brokeback mountain sesh and spoon sesh on the floor with my baby gurl. and at this present moment i am high and waiting for ryan to get out out the shower.


good times....<33



and tonight i get to spend the night at kathleens...it just keeps getting better.

<3peace

(up the crusties)

Today has been pretty good, cept i haven't seen kathleen , but ill see her tonight. i've just been chillin and hanging with my friends. I really dont want to go back home. Kathleen and I had our 8 months on saturday!!<333333 well im gonna go shower and hopefully smoke some more, and wait for kathleen to get home from work.

peace<3

well today i figured since everyone is at graduation and kathleen gets out early..we are gonna hang out and chill...im soo fucking glad to be back in maryland cause i fucking hate texas,,cept for the handfull of people who save it from a state of complete shit...so yeah i guess i should go get ready to go...
peace<3